T,

You’ll realize that in the end, all the troubles that you’re having now will eventually be useful in making you better. Once everything is through, you can look back at your old self and move forward with everything that you learned. You’ll be better. A year ago, you weren’t the same person as you are now. You improved. I’m pretty sure that in a few years time, you’ll be way better than who you are now. By that time, you’ll be free. Free to take hold of your life and make the things that you really want. Give yourself time. You need not rush; for in patience one can appreciate the value of things. Things that were rushed often lead to failures. Half-baked. Do not make the same mistakes all over again. Now, it’s about time to just take hold of yourself and do some improvements and repairs. It may be sad and lonely, but after everything is through, it will all be worth it.  <3